Not All Those Who Wander Are Lost

I don't know what to say, I don't know what to speak of,  maybe it's the weather? Or all those recent events that has clinch onto us. Well I don't know. I don't know anything.

No I'm not depressed. Or am I ? Just that I do not know of it?
Is it because of my lack of sleep? Then can I blame it on the dreaded insomnia that I have?
Or it it because of the educational stress? Then all the blame can be on additional mathematics and accounts then?

I'm lost.

But by being lost, it it a good thing? Does being lost means that I need help and guidance back to the "real" world? So by being in the harsh damp and dull reality, the world where there's signs and directions , where we are being guided by everything and everyone, does it mean that we are never going to get lost in that world?

By reading this again, I realized, I have not known what I've said, there's just tons of clutters in my brain, everything's messed up, not knowing which path of life I'm heading towards to, not knowing the stuffs that I like, not having something to consistently stick with. And here I am, voicing my apology to the few person who's reading this , cause I've probably wasted most of your time. But it's just a mess. I'm a mess.

I need a hug.
I need someone to talk to.
I need not let these tears flow.