Soul Mates

"and who could forget the ever lovely agatha. there's no other way to sum up agatha other than the words of gustave himself, and i quote. "i must say, i find that girl utterly delightful. flat as a board, enormous birthmark the shape of mexico over half her face, sweating for hours on end in that sweltering kitchen while mendl, genius though he is, looms over her like a hulking gorilla. yet without question, without fail, always and invariably, she's exceedingly lovely. why? because of her purity."

ahhh love. i feel that that is a topic incredibly desirable to talk about today but i also feel that today's post has exceeded the recommended words. oh well, let's keep it for another day aye?"

that was what i wrote few days back in a sight to behold, a memory to grasp , soul mates are something truly out of this world. soul mates are the one that is the one that you have absolute faith with, the one that will stick through thick and thin just to be with us, the one that literally takes "til death do us part" into meaning. but must soul mates come only in the sense of lovers?  i wholeheartedly think that's not the case.

instead of lovers, i think that friendship is the one that everyone should cherish. i know that saying this isn't particularly effective considering that im not in a relationship. and fyi, i am not looking for one. there has not been the one that brought up the passion in me , get it? the feeling that sweeps you off the ground, the butterfly in the stomach feeling, there hasn't been anyone like that since last year. i mean, there's one or two that i had a crush on but give it 2 weeks top, that crush is no more. there hasn't been anyone that bring upon that effect and i fear there will not be anyone.

but whatever. i have my friends don't it? 

the past few days have been mentally too stressed for me. i was stressed to the point that i wished i had hurt myself. i wished to be left alone in my bed and let the blanket shield away the problems. but the words of the one that truly care brought me back. tonight im not feeling as bad as monday or even tuesday. im slightly better. but for how long?

for however long my friendship with them last.

im sorry that this post is short and not sufficiently good in terms of the english language but , i've been losing both my words and common sense these past few days. heck, i was losing it since 2-3 months ago. and i cant bear the fact that im going to lose my words. i dont care that i have an english test next week. i don't care about all that. i just want to write. but without my words, i fear i will no longer write. i might even have to kill myself. without words, i am nothing.