1:12am

The last post was about me embarking on a week without any usage of social media with Yee Li.
Today's post is about me succumbing to my weakness and thus, failing the challenge.
I'm so fucking disappointed in myself.

I don't know why it's so much harder this time around, heck the last time I went on it, it was for two weeks and it was easy. Nothing as hard as this time. So why is it so? I don't know, is it the courtship of a broken heart? Is it the race to perfection? Or is it just the fact that time has come and went and it's no longer what we call a "simple time."


God I miss those simple time. At this rate, I'm just counting the days to a getaway trip to Bali come this weekend, I'll be missing 4 days of class, (yes I have classes on weekends, yes weekends constitutes Saturdays and Sundays, so yes, I have class on Saturdays and Sundays, but not this Saturday and Sunday).

I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't go through college without the feeling of dread and disappointment, without feeling like a failure. Each step in the premise bring upon a harder and harsher heartache.

"I found myself face down in the ditch, losing my hair, blood on my lips." - Ray LaMontagne's Jolene

what went wrong? i miss you so much 

1:23am //

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