The Loss Of What I Never Had

This is "sort-of" a continuation to yesterday's post, hey look at that, a back to back post in the span of two days, yeah, so the same grammatical mistake will be present. So bear with me.

As a follow up to yesterday, I feel like I left out a ton more things that I felt that I should've put it in, it was this fact that kept me up for a little bit yesterday.

Imagine Lucy, the movie. In the movie, although it is proven otherwise, it was said that we use less than 10% of our brain. And that she basically physically evaporated when her mind reaches 100%. Even at 50% she's already losing her mind. I feel like that, except without the intellectual gains that I should have. I am just basically, to put it simply, losing my mind.

Time, I feel like, right now, I don't have a proper grasp of time, not that I ever had it, but it feels like I've genuinely fully lost it as of now. A second never feels like a second, a minute feels longer than 60 seconds, an hour could feel like 20 minutes or 300 minutes. I could last 3 hour in class studying then the next second I'd die if I had to face the books for another second. That is, if I start studying, but just for illustration purposes, you get what I mean, right?

I feel like I woke up on the wrong planet. Y'know the concept of there being a thousand other worlds and each is linked but never intersects? That there will be exactly the same situation in one world and the next but each will have a different consequences for every option there is. I feel like I've somehow traversed from one world to the other and messed up the perfectly complex world. Everything feels different. Even the ground I'm stepping on right now feels different. I don't know what's wrong with me. Some things feels lighter while some feels heavier.

Did I wake up in a world where our hearts were still seemed in one?