Human Interaction
2:59am
2/4/2016
I was thinking a few days back. Funny, amidst the mountain of assignments and deadlines, I have the audacity to take a moment for myself to... think? Good Lord Stan, there's definitely something wrong with you. Anyhow, I came to write for a reason and I guess I should bring myself to start writing again. Look at this shit, after months of being away from "real" writing, the degree of whatever writing skills I have has deteriorated to almost being non-existent. Over-exaggerating but the point stands.
Okay, my thoughts. I have come to terms of my inability to be socially compatible with the normal human beings. I don't mean the interaction that we all commit on a daily basis, but on a level higher than that. I am absolutely fine with the aforementioned daily communication, in fact I could say I'm more than just fine. But sometimes, you get home and you just want to connect someone, to tell them genuinely how's your day and to be there for them and vice versa, and no, not in a romantic sense. I saw this quote on Tumblr years ago and it has stuck with me since.
The opportunities to form this kind of relationship are there, I just got to reach out and bend the tracks together. But are they with the right person? Is he/she really the right soulmate? Ever since young, I never understand the true value of being a human being and having friends. All I ever thought was that, human beings are a form to achieve your goals. Maybe that's why I don't have much friends, and by this I mean the aforementioned soulmates. I do believe that I use other people and at the same time, am being used by others to achieve a set of target. Man, there's really no way in putting this kindly, but don't get me wrong. I don't mean using as in, I use people and dump them aside. It's more like, I use you, we're friends and our time limit is up, I will truly appreciate you as a human being and I hope to grow with you, until time drifts us apart.
A romantic relationship, hmm. Y'know, the only reason I had these thoughts stems from the existence of a romantic relationship. I understand the need for such relationships, but how do people do it? I'm kind of like Eugene from The Walking Dead, minus the brains and the fantastic hair. A socially awkward human being who creeps behind a wall and observe the beings that is in front.
My God, it's 3 in the morning and I'm letting my thoughts run wild. I apologize for anything I wrote that might offend, then again, what am I not sorry for? I seem to apologize for something every second of the day. Running along with that, I'm sorry for the atrocious reading that you've done, both in context and in the quality in which it is being served upon.
I'm going off to bed, praying to Father Sleep that he grants me the blessing that is sleep. In the mean time, there will be more writing ( I hope ). Until then, here's two songs for you to feel the sad thoughts that is in me.
CITIZEN // HEAVENSIDE
MADI DIAZ // TOMORROW
TITLE FIGHT // MURDER YOUR MEMORY
JAWS // THINK TOO MUCH, FEEL TOO LITTLE
(I can't profess my love for Tomorrow and Think Too Much, Feel Too Little more, listen to them. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do)
I also want to mention that people in life come and go but for each stages of my 20 years and counting, there's people that has constantly been a mainstay in it and I want to say I love you guys for putting up with my shits and I hope I've done enough to warrant that kind of love from you. You know who you are, there's no need for any mentions of name.
3:27am
2/4/2016
2/4/2016
I was thinking a few days back. Funny, amidst the mountain of assignments and deadlines, I have the audacity to take a moment for myself to... think? Good Lord Stan, there's definitely something wrong with you. Anyhow, I came to write for a reason and I guess I should bring myself to start writing again. Look at this shit, after months of being away from "real" writing, the degree of whatever writing skills I have has deteriorated to almost being non-existent. Over-exaggerating but the point stands.
Okay, my thoughts. I have come to terms of my inability to be socially compatible with the normal human beings. I don't mean the interaction that we all commit on a daily basis, but on a level higher than that. I am absolutely fine with the aforementioned daily communication, in fact I could say I'm more than just fine. But sometimes, you get home and you just want to connect someone, to tell them genuinely how's your day and to be there for them and vice versa, and no, not in a romantic sense. I saw this quote on Tumblr years ago and it has stuck with me since.The opportunities to form this kind of relationship are there, I just got to reach out and bend the tracks together. But are they with the right person? Is he/she really the right soulmate? Ever since young, I never understand the true value of being a human being and having friends. All I ever thought was that, human beings are a form to achieve your goals. Maybe that's why I don't have much friends, and by this I mean the aforementioned soulmates. I do believe that I use other people and at the same time, am being used by others to achieve a set of target. Man, there's really no way in putting this kindly, but don't get me wrong. I don't mean using as in, I use people and dump them aside. It's more like, I use you, we're friends and our time limit is up, I will truly appreciate you as a human being and I hope to grow with you, until time drifts us apart.
A romantic relationship, hmm. Y'know, the only reason I had these thoughts stems from the existence of a romantic relationship. I understand the need for such relationships, but how do people do it? I'm kind of like Eugene from The Walking Dead, minus the brains and the fantastic hair. A socially awkward human being who creeps behind a wall and observe the beings that is in front.
My God, it's 3 in the morning and I'm letting my thoughts run wild. I apologize for anything I wrote that might offend, then again, what am I not sorry for? I seem to apologize for something every second of the day. Running along with that, I'm sorry for the atrocious reading that you've done, both in context and in the quality in which it is being served upon.
I'm going off to bed, praying to Father Sleep that he grants me the blessing that is sleep. In the mean time, there will be more writing ( I hope ). Until then, here's two songs for you to feel the sad thoughts that is in me.
CITIZEN // HEAVENSIDEMADI DIAZ // TOMORROW
TITLE FIGHT // MURDER YOUR MEMORY
JAWS // THINK TOO MUCH, FEEL TOO LITTLE
(I can't profess my love for Tomorrow and Think Too Much, Feel Too Little more, listen to them. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do)
I also want to mention that people in life come and go but for each stages of my 20 years and counting, there's people that has constantly been a mainstay in it and I want to say I love you guys for putting up with my shits and I hope I've done enough to warrant that kind of love from you. You know who you are, there's no need for any mentions of name.
3:27am
2/4/2016
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